8.29.2021

Steadfast Eternal

Steadfast devotion
To letting go of emotions
To letting go of ego
And any need for lotion
Not needing to impress
Or ever be the best
For all you are is you are all
Not standing short nor standing tall
Forget whence came your wherewithal
And ever know the eternal



 

8.28.2021

Chaos Theory

The boat rocks
With the putting on of socks
With the wearing of shoes
Begins the whole deluge
A butterfly floats hither
The hurricane now differs
The wearing of these pants
Alters the whims of chance
She stopped to have a chat
When I'd worn the yellow hat
The day the coffee stained my shirt
Was the day she left Earth first.

Do the heavens follow these random rules?
Star systems scoffing at us astronomical fools
Not meaning to be either callous or cruel
Night sky simply fizzing delight bejeweled
Not disconnected from the bubbles in this Sprite
Light as witness to all neither wrong nor right

Twisting and writhing in cavernous dark
I look for order in chaos so stark
I look for order in chaos remarkable
I look for order in chaos so stark

I look for order in a chaos 

10 Years On

Everyday awareness  

Take me to my highness  

Putting down the weapons  

Of my mental blindness  


Let me feel the bliss  

Of a day to reminisce  

Letting down my guard  

Forgetting my to-do list  


Leaning into pain  

And learning, each refrain  

As decades pass by faster  

And each year links life's chain  


I feel myself much wiser  

To know I'd be a liar  

Not to see that 10 years on  

These words will seem much triter  


And from that perch in time  

May I treat my follies kind  

And return to that innocence-  

Life not repeating but set to rhyme:  


Of one who knows but not quite so much  

As one day on, and on, til all is dust.  

8.21.2021

All You Are is Pretty Words


All you are is pretty words

Quicksilver touch, watery allure

Turtle shell head down demure

A heart so flawed to seek the pure

 

All you are is pretty words

Oceans rising, you stay submerged

Nod, acquiesce, you concur

Go with the flow, you say for sure

 

Pockets full of time without a spur

Where do you point, to what refer?

To follow the leader is to follow the herds

Meekness has brought you bleak rewards

 

Hanging back not moving towards

All you are is pretty words



8.17.2021

Breaking the News: The Apathy of World Affairs

A people passed

From these guys to

Those guys

Millions marauded-

Persons-

I don’t mean the

Billions in

Whose currency again?

All I do is flip through the channels

Of carousel scenes of chaos

A life plucked from a plane

By the force of desperation

Dropping onto tarmac

A thousand feet below

For all of us to see

How naked of dignity

In life and

In death

An entire people can be.

And what to us?

Popcorn spectacle

Watercooler talking point

Third world "hell-hole"

After "hell-hole"

These are the others

We could never know

Hidden in our 'sights'

Living in the shadow

While the one's we all appoint

To run these world affairs

Couldn't really give a damn

Don't really even care.


7.25.2021

Animating my Face

Black shoes, black pants

Grey shirt

A Human inhabits

The fabrics

Working

Standing, walking

Sitting

shifting

When is it time

To go home?

Dimly lit house

Back from the road

Hidden by trees

Won't you come and visit?

Pour color on my clothes

Draw lines on a blank face

Eating and sleeping

And working

Have lost their charm.

I'm disarmed so easily as you

Twirl your fingers through your hair

While we play through songs

On the old-time stereo

You look at me

And the flute solo is almost on cue

What algorithm is this?

That knows our whole lives

Better than we know ourselves

Spread bare by

constellations of data points

That light up my soul against

The backdrop of my life

My mouth now dances

To the rhythm of spells

Gushing all over your rarity

Compelled by your minimalism

Letting go of every half-baked thought

Every summed and numbed sentiment

Multiplied by every rumination

Concluding 

In an aftermath of

Disappearing mystery

The moment has passed

My stomach reminds me

Of another supper

Another dreamless sleep

Back to work

In the same black shoes

Black pants, grey shirt

And with these newfound lines

Animating my face

6.01.2021

Time

Watches

Me wherever I go

Time is who I worship

From Sunday to sundown

The hour is always upon me

From hourglass to sundial

Time empties me dry

Until all I can do

Is watch

Time


Time

Counts me

My every step 

Every turn and twist

Time is mathematical

Multiplying in all our plans

Subtracting away the people I love

Dividing life into memories

Time is not vengeful

Use me it says

“Make me

Count”

Time

 

Time

Heals all

Maybe next

Time things will be

Different- more serene

Waiting for that time feels like

Forever again- I feel now

Time is always here

Together with my

Keeping of it

All hail

Time




5.30.2021

labyrinth

 What is it I keep in the center of my labyrinth?

The letters on the spines of the books on my shelf?

The secrets I keep unknown, even to myself?

All the potions that will cure me, or simple absinthe?

 

What are the contours of the walls seen from overhead?

How high I launch my mind with mighty escapism?

How bright is the fall, with light scattered through prisms?

Until you reach the darkness, the center of my dread?

 

Mazes made for a reason, do you understand?

To keep safe what’s most valued? Or hide what is most base?

In a world where both are the same, you’ll find the rat race

Questions neverending supplanting all demands.

 

What is it I search for? Where my Daedalus?

Who designed this latest monstrosity?

Puzzling and exhausting me

With many ways in but no way out

5.26.2021

Shyamali

Consummate professional

One with the dust

Settled on the floor

Sweeping from this door to that door

Back unbroken

So it seemed

Spirit unbowed

Although

Your life was labor

And to us, what more?

Your Hindi must have met

My Bengali

Further along the line

Hand on hip, smiling

Accepting your lot in life

Not having any options

Maybe

But finding respite

In what never changed

a rag, a jhaaro, and the light

in your eyes

5.24.2021

Gratitude for my love

Gratitude for my love

Each day you rise

Just at that time

That I go back to sleep

Shaking off my fourth alarm

You tell me “Go to office”

Like clockwork

And fall back to sleep

Just one instance of doing just what is required

To keep me afloat

Call us “Co-dependent”

But I look up to you

Faithfully

For you have never failed me

Call me “Borderline personality”

But I know your criticism is your care

And I (usually) can take it all in

With my unblinking stare

For you don’t intend reprimanding

Your talent is

Understanding

5.18.2021

Unifinity-vid


I see constellations

in blind frustration

warriors made

out of the good red clay

stomping on tomorrow’s yield

with injuries from yesterday


firing in the kiln-

manmade artifice

no new newspaper mills-

the thirst for kill

that you-or-me thrill


so pull the water out the well

heaving hard on hope

quench ourselves from fire

because today we could just find

an oasis or a mire


dissolving in solutions-

when the problems loom so large

so close, so loud, deafening- shards

when we already have selective hearing

and our ear drums are dead to

music


then music takes its turn

moving the ocean of mood


please


Turn

It

Down

A

Little (a lot)


w omb sounds begin

a rtistic creation

v olume just so to remind us of

e xistatic

s ilence


now we (I, U, Me, Them, Us- the theme is unity)


We can either

arrive at heaven’s gate

at the rate of fate

Or eat what we have planted-

fruition on our plate


Add in all the flavors

that repelled us oh so much

bitter, sour, sweet

pungent, umami

spicy

Stomach every poison

Our tongues have let speak


Subdue our gazes

Learn from our neighbors

freedom of immigration and customs

respect for difference

especially what is individual

never to exclude the ones longing

for basic belonging-

(who isn’t?)


No One knows the uncharted way

of this united vision

Though we all are rays

In the Sun’s Vision

This mirror world we live in

pointing at each other

Criticisms and all the isms

bouncing back onto ourselves

compounding each and every hatred

and each and every joy

each and every kind act we deploy

each and every dream we pass on to another

each and every apology to our mothers

each and every insult we bomb onto the weak

Each and every cruelty we attach to when we think

Each and every disrespect to a people or a person

Each and every movement to a better version

Of Me, I, us (once I meet with U), WE (once them/us does not divide us any further thus)


This is my hope, that we stay dissolved in the solutions, that the water brigade may meet every fire brigade, and that the fire brigade will only be the water brigade, in reality. For accidents may happen, but I am responsible for me. I am responsible for my part in us. Us and Them are responsible for becoming WE. It maybe what it is, but We are who we are; We are what we think, feel, say, do, together, and for the silence that we will return to, the shadow of the light, the emptiness inside us, the beauty burning bright. 


5.05.2021

Hey Mister, Maybe It's Time

Hey mister
Won’t you help me get from A to
B?
Don’t know how to spell
Never had any epiphany
you speak of
haphazardly
Not seeing the cracks in the road
Where we stumble
You say you feel the bomb blasts underground
When you’re bouncing around the hall
In your own world of
XYZ
You say each day is the end times
Well I’m just trying to get from A to
B
Won’t you hold your hand out strong?
I’m tired of pleasantries
We’re not at a gallery
Gazing from portrait to landscape
We don’t know no pleasant trees
No silver mountain peaks
No crescent moons
Just take me one step ahead
Because I’m losing my way
I’ve done tried everything they told me
Going in your direction
Along your destiny
Maybe it’s time
You came over here with me

12.31.2020

Unphotagraphabley me

2016-2021

I sat down across from you

Not knowing quite who I was

Two cups of cold coffee

You paid for both of us

Was this the beginning of our love?


I could barely hear your voice

Let alone understand you

Soft-spoken, casual, sweet

With no airs about you

Assured without being an elite


I went home and we met again

Strolling side by side together

But alone in different worlds

No thoughts of forever

a moment in time, chatting with pleasure


You called me very handsome

With not the slightest longing

Hegel appeared in between

Your Mummi brought me tea

Sublating our dialectic


“Is vale se shaadi kar”

“You ought to marry this one”

Startled you turned my way

“She doesn’t quite realize

“A guy and a girl can be just friends.”


Since our first two meets,

we’ve come a long way

especially you

leaving tears in Kolkata

on the shoulders of your kin

Who you’d supported through thick and thin

who said they’d be okay without you

who were as heart-broken as proud of you

Flowering into your own wonder woman

From the time I had first seen the budding stem

Working at home, relaxing, taking a break

From your crusade against the powerful

gaining new perspective

adapting to an election

adapting to my friends and family

dancing in your first snow

The beauty of a house

The promise of a home

A pet replacing your vision of an animal farm

stable job instead of an early sanyas

Letting me be

trusting when it didn’t make any sense to

wisdom is not having any expectations

wisdom is the sound of your voice

the care in your words

the integrity of your deeds

balancing our wants and needs

dominating and tiring of it

sitting back and learning patience

entering a world of calm

cuddling in my arms

2020 didn’t defeat us

it was our greatest year

the envy of our peers

and on we go as one

into 2021

and beyond...


12.06.2020

REINCAMERANATION



my self dissolves

in the light of overexposed film

reels and reels of black magnetic tape

all that I am

nothing less

nothing more

no more cut scenes

of strings of memory

some brighter than others

some damaged beyond repair

unable to ever capture the full extent of my life

anyways

no longer identifiable

as the person I am

or was

just black magnetic strips

spinning in circles relentlessly

whirring on the wheel

is this who I am?

where am I?

I could be anything

everyone

everything

anyone

who has ever been

who will ever be

absolutely naked

nothing

a child in the womb

not quite ready for a new world

not knowing anything else

wiped clean

for the show

for the next scene

black majestic tape

it all must go on:

LIGHTS, CAMERA, ACTION